insomniac

If you spend most of your nights knocking your brains out trying to discover a way to get to sleep, you're probably just like me... welcome to the insomniac club, these days, its been getting more and more difficult to get to sleep as i spend more nights at home and run out of programmes to do. Everyone tells me i look extremely busy, pre-occupied with activities all day long, well.. that isn't exactly the case, my civilian life revolves around skating, going to the office, walking around town, walking around town, and umm... more walking around town... especially in wee hours of the night, i just realised that 4 out of 7 nights i would spend walking from cineleisure to far east and back, 2-3 times, the other 3 nights, i spend walking up and down citylink/suntec city.... what a fulfilling lifestyle! But nevertheless, i sorta enjoy this repetitive, mundane, downright boring way of life.

Found this on a webbie i found

Question: What does an insomniac agnostic dyslexic do late at night?

Answer: Lie awake wondering about the existence of dog.

Found this interesting although i have no idea what it means and where the crux of the joke is... and to add to it... i had to go search the dictionary for what agnostic and dyslexic means... but at least it kept me occupied.

Something posted on shareinvestor forum...

Heavenly Father,

Help us remember that the jerk who cut us off in traffic last night is a single mother who worked nine hours that day and is rushing home to cook dinner, help with homework, do the laundry and spend a few precious moments with her children.

Help us to remember that the pierced, tattooed, disinterested young man who can't make change correctly is a worried 19-year-old college student, balancing his apprehension over final exams with his fear of not getting his student loans for next semester.

Remind us, Lord, that the scary looking bum, begging for money in the same spot every day (who really ought to get a job!) is a slave to addictions that we can only imagine in our worst nightmares.

Help us to remember that the old couple walking annoyingly slow through the store aisles and blocking our shopping progress are savoring this moment, knowing that, based on the biopsy report she got back last week, this will be the last year that they go shopping together.

it's all about perception isn't it... if we make believe that there's a tear inducing story behind the shit we encounter everyday, we'd probably be a tad more forgiving and understanding, not to mention how much we'd be able to delay the male balding effect from the reduction of wallowing in self righteous anger.

Something to note...
Today, i did something phenomenal... a stupendously portentous feat... by my standards... i have very low standards though... i had only 10 bucks left on me when i left for the market and i managed to return with a sumptous breakfast for my whole family =D, i feel proud of myself.

Mystery...

Has your mind ever wandered off.... in an attempt to absolve that binding curiosity pertaining to a particular mystery which intrigues every cell in your body? Have you ever come a sane and logical conclusion as to why or rather how such phenomenons can occur? strange sightings, weird dreams, the bermuda triangle...

Have you ever experienced deja vu? That strange feeling as though a particular scene in your life has taken place before? Sometimes i wonder if we live our lifetimes over and over again... perhaps we are just an algorithmic function.... somewhat like a function in a computer program, each and everyone of us perform a certain function in this world and when we complete the process, we go back into the system till the program requires us and does a function call... each time we perform our particular function the course of actions are the same, but the inputs are slightly different... and each time the results are different.

too much maths in the afternoon... makes me crazy...

I enjoy a good view... the magnificence of the waves crashing into the cliffs in augusta, the pretty lights of ships contrasting the dark skies and the calm seas, the panoramic view of the city, the starry starry nights.... I still vividly remember the sights we encountered when me and chek backpacked across western australia... especially the delightful sunrise and the stars that shone brightly in the darkness of the night... if you enjoy a great view of the vast ocean ... go watch pirates of the caribbean 3... a great movie...

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So hot i cried myself to sleep......

My almanac calender....

It's time to take a look at the crystal ball.... will something happen in june?
maybe... maybe not.... my almanac tells me that june is not a good month.... at least... not for most ppl... somehow... i have this vehement compulsion to let go of most of my stuff and stay low.... are you over leveraged? if you are... its probably time to rethink your financial status... well... nothing changes though... the world will still revolve... bastards will still be bastards.. bitches will still be bitches... but you'll probably see alot less of them on the streets because the streets probably won't be as crowded.. I hope i'm a bad fortune teller..... and my almanac is a corrupted version....

Financial freedom

"I want to achieve financial freedom", I believe you've come across this sentence more than once. Our society is progressively moving towards decadence, all thanks to the influence of the so called culture of the "new era", nobody really knows what they want, i don't know what i want... Everyone follows like a blind sheep at the edge of the cliff and conforms to whatever propoganda the media broadcasts.

Donald Trump, David Beckham, Paris Hilton, such are the tv personalities that the common folks place upon a pedestal and attempt to mimic in terms of fashion sense, physical appearences, behavior and even to some extent their lingo. But have you really asked yourself if you "wanna walk talk and rock like slim shady"? The media start setting benchmarks for all sort of ridiculous things. Now... you have attach a few chosen labels on the back of your shirt to appear cool? just because the tv says so? Where did the days go where we followed our hearts and did what we felt was best? Sometimes it leads me to wonder if the prophesized mechanical future where artificial intelligence rules the world is just metaphorical? Maybe it refers to the mechanized behavior of humans, all programmed in one particular way, variance in personalities, attitude and speech will become a thing of the past and diversity will cease to exist.... ok... maybe i went a little off.. but you get what i'm trying to say....

I realise i tend to digress.... back to the topic of financial freedom, What is the definition of financial freedom, i believe everyone has a different definition to it although they have the same insatiable greed. To some, it means a fully paid up flat, a modest car and the ability to send their kids to university, for some.. it means a little bit more, and to the MTV cribs it means having the opulence to have your house in the middle of a valley with a 18 hole golf course and a helicopter pad. Regardless of their definition of financial freedom, many have turned to instruments that allows them to hope for... anything that gives them that rare commodity named hope, even a glimpse of it will suffice. The equities market is one of the popular investment instrument many turn to... but how many actually know what they are doing? And if they know their stuff, do they have the discipline to abide by their rules as they ride the emotional roller coaster? Goethe once quoted "To think is easy. To act is hard. But the hardest thing in the world is to act in accordance with your thinking."

Many rely on tips given by "gurus" on forums and never try to do their own homework and some blindly rely on hearsay, who are you going to blame if things don't go the way it's supposed to? 2 words "Cavaet Emptor", go suck on your balls. Like what Albert ellis said "The best years of your life are the ones in which you decide your problems are your own. You do not blame them on your mother, the ecology or the president.You realize that you control your own destiny". As you move, you learn, you win some you lose some, but you gain the wealth of knowledge and experience, some lessons can be painful, so just know your limits. Subsistence income is the most important thing of all, if you're ever gonna attain what you wish for, you have to got to be able to fill your stomach first...

The theory of infinite opportunities says that "There is always another day to earn your pot of gold, one good decision is better than a basket ambivalent ones"

Well... digressing again.... all in all... i think... in retrospect... we were all less bound to financial woes in the days of yore... even though we were less well off in the quantifiable aspect.. Don't you think so?

I love good quotes....

"Glory is fleeting, but obscurity is forever."
- Napoleon Bonaparte (1769-1821)

His ignorance is encyclopedic" - Abba Eban

月黑风高

夜深了，排回在安静的街道上

沉默仿佛在耳边，轻轻地嘲笑这个迷失的男孩

男生问了问自己“为什么会在这里”

满脑都是那身后迪斯高舞厅的吵闹

城市的喧哗掩盖了他的视线

不知不觉走到了这里，却不知道想去哪里。。

男孩眼前出现了一辆黑色德士，

他拖着沉重的双脚上了车

男孩看着司机惺忪的双眼，问了问司机 “你还好吧？看起来好累..好累”

司机微笑的点了点头，轻声说道“习惯了，我下班后还有份打扫得兼职，这点不算什么”

司机轻轻的踩了油门，开往那被雨蒙蔽，看不到尽头的路

看着车上那件烫得笔挺的西装，男孩好奇地问司机“这西装。。”

司机嘴角露出了一丝笑容，话道

“明天是我儿子的毕业典礼，他明天就正式成为见习医生了，他好乖的， 我是粗人一个，不懂得如何教他，但他一直都不用我操心，我忙碌了半辈子纵欲等到他成才的一天，好开心，好开心”

司机那一丝丝的白发和眼角的皱纹把它弄得好苍老，看起来好累好累

但从声音中听出司机一份不怕牺牲的爱，和一份骄傲和喜悦。

男孩的脑海中浮现出好多好多画面，自己的过去，自己迷惘的前途， 看到了父亲被岁月弄得苍老的那张脸，和那劳碌了半辈子得双手。大城市灯光鲜艳，看着窗外的路灯，车里的影子，却看不到自己，看到了路牌，却怀疑方向，走了千万公里，却忘记了目地。。。

他从沉思中突然被司机叫醒

“我老了，忘了问你。。。”

“你要去哪里？”




月黑风高

陈奕迅

月黑风高弯腰在记程车雨点大 不短的路 给蒙蔽
我看司机这样子 熬夜到天亮不容易
谁知他说 开完车 还要替一正东大厦扫地才休息
如果能多争几个钱 让儿子上大学没关系
他还说 没关系 再困也没有问题
只要下一代了不起
下一代 我们再 我们再 唉声叹气
在沼泽里无能为力
想不到为什么会在这里 又想去哪里
越懂得多 越不满意 越喜欢回忆
看到了背影 看不到自己
路牌也都怀疑一直 走千万公里 忘记了目的
他笑着说 从来没 没念过书只懂得 出卖劳力 求生息
所以才希望他儿子 将来能行医 有出息
他说已经大年纪开着车 右手有一点麻痹 没问题
后天有医生做儿子 每次想到这里就欢喜
他还说 再吃力也不要 穿的失礼否则怎去毕业典礼
下一代 我们再 我们再 唉声叹气在沼泽里无能为力
想不到为什么会在这里又想去哪里
越懂得多 越不满意 越喜欢回忆
看到了背影 看不到自己
（路牌）也都怀疑 一直走千万公里 忘记了目的
想不到为什么会在这里 又想去哪里
越懂得多 越不满意 越喜欢回忆
看到了路灯 看不到自己 一直到司机说他老了 忘了问我你想去哪里~~~

remember not to....

A few things you should never do..... i mean never never do....

1. Eat a whole packet of sun biscuits.. especially the really really sweet ones...
2. Run around the house 3am in the morning shouting sugar overload
3. Attempt remedy the sugar overload by drinking 3 litres of tap water
4. Walk to a park that's 15 mins from your house after loading your bladder
5. Look for a toilet in a park that's barely the size of a basketball court
6. Run home with your bladder full and ready to burst
7. Blog about your stupidity after the end of everything

sugar overload

OVERLOAD!!! OVERLOAD!!!!! system down.... system down....
arghHhhh... someone save me!!!!!!!!!

sakura drops...

Isn't it better that some words are left unsaid.... instead, replace the words with a simple tingles of an instrument... makes the world an easier place to live in...

presenting..... my campmates....

Finally.... the time has come for our ord.... we've been through the ups and the downs.... all the sai kang and all the standbys... endured the "dynamic" environment of our batallion... and now we shall thrust forward towards the next phase of our lifes.... I'll miss waking up in the morning with you guys... eating the sambal bao and the grossly unpalatable cookhouse dinner... i'll miss all the little moments we shared together... i'll hardship and joy we experienced together... i'll remember the jokes we had and the songs we shared... i'll remember how your sheer presence made ns life so much easier on me.... i'll miss all of you... all of your antics and all of your idiosyncrasies... our paths converged 20mths ago... and now we'll move on towards our different directions in life... obscure as our future may be... i'm sure we'll all manage a ray of light upon the bleakness, push through the fog of uncertainties into a bright and wonderful tomorrow... like what hanwen says... life begins with a pink ic... I wish all of you the best in you future endeavours.. sounds like some speech CO would give... but this is from the bottom of my heart... i hope that even if our paths don't cross in future... we'll forever remember what we shared... and when you're lonely and depressed... always remember there's a cockster waiting for your call to go kbox or to la kopi.... anyways... i really enjoyed the ord bbq and i'm glad i took pictures....

WOhOoo!!! BBQ here we come.....

ehh.. how come no food??? waT!!!! waiting for us to start fire... sai kang again...

The not so hiong ah hiong~

My 2 bunk mates... jiu cheng singer of 我只为你打 and smelly chen... least interested player

too much food... maybe we should take some and smear it on each other's face

do we look "least interested" enough?

intro to the guys...

火锅叔叔 trying to act cute again... so much muscle but like a kid lidat... haha... i hope you'll remember me when u go australia... and i dun wanna see you on the headlines... so pls keep try not be too much of yourself lest you offend someone... i'll remember you my guard duty partner.. Its a dog eat dog world!!!

zhanhong trying to console ah hiong... dun be so sad... its only a girl...

MIBn sai kang warriors!!! Bravo COY!

The relack gang..... want some otah?

If only we could skate in camp... :D

Speed demon trying to show off his speed of eating chicken wing.... Col Ho is supervising.. kelvin is conducting and dennis... juz dere to watch and mimic...

Our new OC.... a great guy... thanks for taking care of us in our last days in the batallion... sorry if we caused you any trouble.... wish you the best in your career... sir... if you become BG muz remember us horz...

ORD　ＬＯ～～!!!

暗淡无光的世界，多了许多色彩，就因为有你们在。。。。

如果

也许我今天上街会碰到一个可爱的女孩

也许我们会有眼神交流

也许我会向前去认识她

也许我们会一拍即合
也许我们会发觉彼此志趣相同
也许我们会聊一整晚
也许我会向她讨电话号码
也许我会和她相约上街
也许我们会玩得很开心
也许我们会走得越来越近
也许我们会爱上对方
也许我会发现她就是我一直寻找的那善解人意的女孩
也许我们会一起经历很多事
也许我们的感情会因此而成长
也许我会向她求婚
也许她会答应
也许我们会生下两个可爱的男孩
也许我们会成就一个我们梦想中完美的家
也许我们会有一个美满的结局
也许。。。。。。。
也许就因为我没向前去认识她
我才能有那么多的也许
才能有那么多的想象空间
去创造出我理想中的结局
也许，只有在梦境中， 才能有你想要的结局
也许，只有在脑海里，我才能控制剧情的发展，才能如愿以偿
也许，只有在梦幻中才能找到那我渴望的她
也许，可能，如果。。。。 它们是多完美的字眼阿！

cafe dilmar... or however you spell it.....

Recieved a call from bird at around 9pm..... was asked a nonsensical question "ehh... sentosa go in need to pay money or not huh?" i took it as a "you wanna go sentosa with us?" having no life... i was pretty much obliged accede to the request...


i proceeded home to meet them and head off to sentosa together.... i got home 20 minutes later to find them still stuck in a jam... in the carpark of vivo city... (-_-")


well... waited half an hour for them... and we headed off to cafe dilmar... or however you spell it... but if i have to pay 60 dollars for a jug of whiskey... i think i can call it whatever i want... but anyways... here's what happened
























Never really got to understand what the hype was all about..... so we decided to leave the place after half an hour of trying to figure out why the place is fun... anyways... we ended up at cineleisure hongkong cafe and continued our frenzy of looking at each other not knowing what to do...















artisitic right? anyways... you probably know where the focus of the photo is after all the editing... haha..... she's from hong kong....

sammi rox....

Finally cleared my SOC... paid a price though... blisters and a cut on my ankle... but its all worth it... can finally clear out my helmet and SBO~!!!! ORD LO!!!!!!

sammi.... Diva 4eva~!!!!

kutuk

kutuk - blockhead or otherwise used to describe a slow and uncreative person

i always thought i was creative and witty...
but some things are juz harder to go about doing than others.....
guess that whilst i'm good at some stuff.... i'm really really lousy at some too....