Here i am again to do my ranting... bringing up topics talked about last week, wait! i think i brought it up about a month ago, i also remember making a really pompous post about it 2 months ago. So, here i am at it again. Repeating what was said over and over again. Somebody please kill me.
The biggest mystery in the universe, purpose in life? we are constantly in search of it, hoping it would manifest and finally offer some kind of repreive to our pathetic lives, but more than often, its all but an illusion, a mirage waiting to dash our hopes, throwing us into the oblivion, floating aimlessly. I am really quite sick of talks about fulfilment, success, acheivements, ambitions so big it wouldn't fit through amos's mouth, big goals and what not.
Saw this in a blog i frequent
Sometimes I have a feeling the only reason why we are here is because the great one up there is simply just bored too. So he created us.
quite intriguing, but somehow it makes alot of sense.
Well,no matter what,life goes on,at least for the moment. From now on, my purpose in life would be to search for a purpose in life, that makes life alot easier on me.
Anyways, video for your viewing pleasure...
I love the scenes from 1:01-1:13, totally depicts just how empty life is,
great pictorial expression of the absence of disposition, of a vacuum state of emotions... shows how pathetic we are... in a fancy luxurious world of material possesion but yet living in a impoverished slum spirtually and emotionally..
10/10 for the video..
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Came across a mail.... it's something i have always been emphasizing on.. cherish the present.
生命若不在現在, 那是何時? 你可曾想過 : 當你汲汲營營的為了工作而加班，或者為了考上研究所而挑燈夜戰時在背後真正的目的是什麼 ???人爬得越高，車子也越大。長久以來，大家都是如此地在社會中「進化」。 升大學時，我告別了單車族，靠家教收入成為機車族，當超越同學的單車，呼嘯而過時，心中隱隱有股優越感。出社會後，賣命工作一段時間，我很快地進化為「汽車族」。每遇紅燈，車停路口時，看著旁邊日曬雨淋的機車騎士，我是三分悲憫，七分驕傲。 不久前，旅行到峇里島，這種「進化論」終於被「當頭棒喝」。有天，很不幸地，眼鏡摔破了；沮喪地中斷行程，叫計程車回旅館。在車上打聽一下，何處可修眼鏡？ 司機 說，附近都沒有眼鏡行，只有到首府「淡巴沙」才能修。我不禁嘆道：「你們這裡真不方便。」 司機則笑著 說：「這裡的人很少近視，倒不會感到不方便。」聽這司機談吐不俗，我決定包他一天車， 到「淡巴沙」修眼鏡，兼市區觀光。他猶豫了幾分鐘，才 說：「那我明早八點到旅館接你。」隔天，在「淡巴沙」逛了一上午，發覺此處無啥可逛；我想打道回府，下午就在旅館游泳、休息。但是想到司機為接生意，必然推掉許多原有計畫，就難以啟齒。掙扎甚久，我結結巴巴地 說：「對不起，司機先生，我想改成只包半天，不知會不會對你造成困擾？」 沒想到司機竟喜出望外地 說：「一點都不會。昨天，你要包一整天車，我很猶豫，如果不是因為跟你談得來，我是不接受包整天車的。」我困惑地問：「為什麼？」 他答：「 我設定一個工作目標，每天只要做到六百元台幣，我就收工，你用一千二台幣包一整天，那我就沒有自己的時間了。」「你可以儲錢，隔天休息呀？」他笑著 說：「先是做一整天再休息，然後就變成做一個月、做一整年再休息；最後是做一輩子，終生不得休息。工作也會習慣的。」我問：「那你們閒著幹嘛呢？時間那麼多，不會無聊嗎？」他看著我，像遇到外星人一樣，說：「這裡那 麼好玩，怎會無聊？峇里島 每家都養鬥雞，收工後，我們就鬥鬥雞、放放風箏，到沙灘打打排球，游游泳呀！」這時，我想到一則笑話：一個美國人到大溪地度假，當大溪地人賣力地幫他按摩時，老美滿心優越感，滿臉悲憫地說： 「如果 你們上進點、積極點、勤快點，你們也可以像我們一樣到大溪地度假呀！」大溪地人一臉疑惑地 說：「你辛苦一年，只為了到大溪地過兩星期日子，我卻是一整年在大溪地享受生活的，我為什麼要學你？」 從峇里島回台灣後，司機的話就像禪宗語錄，不斷在腦海盤旋。突然覺得前半輩子完全「誤入歧途」。 再繼續「進化」下去，可以想見房子應越換越大，大到無力打掃，再請菲傭；為了養房貸與菲傭，只好拚命工作，有家歸不得。那麼大房子 又有何意義？ 開車時，我也想：以車代步，四體不勤，搞得日漸臃腫，只好買個腳踏車或踏步機放在臥室踩。 但時忙，時懶，難以有恆；那何不乾脆騎單車上班，爬樓梯踏步呢？在峇里島治好了文明的近視之後，人生境界豁然開朗， 步調一放慢，視野更寬，也更清楚 。人生過程中您是否也是汲汲營營隨波逐流呢？ 何妨停下腳步抬起頭來看一下方向對否, 這是否是您所要的人生? 忙的時後 , 想要休息; 渡假的時後 , 想到未來; 窮的時後, 渴望富有; 生活安逸了, 擔心結果不如預期; 看明白了 , 後悔當初沒有下定決心; 不屬於自己的 , 常常心存慾望;握在手裡了 , 又懷念未擁有前的輕鬆; 生命若不是現在 , 那是何時!!愈是簡單的快樂 ,愈可以經久不變, 不用苦苦追求快樂 ,現在就是一種幸福喔!!!
生命若不在現在, 那是何時? 你可曾想過 : 當你汲汲營營的為了工作而加班，或者為了考上研究所而挑燈夜戰時在背後真正的目的是什麼 ???人爬得越高，車子也越大。長久以來，大家都是如此地在社會中「進化」。 升大學時，我告別了單車族，靠家教收入成為機車族，當超越同學的單車，呼嘯而過時，心中隱隱有股優越感。出社會後，賣命工作一段時間，我很快地進化為「汽車族」。每遇紅燈，車停路口時，看著旁邊日曬雨淋的機車騎士，我是三分悲憫，七分驕傲。 不久前，旅行到峇里島，這種「進化論」終於被「當頭棒喝」。有天，很不幸地，眼鏡摔破了；沮喪地中斷行程，叫計程車回旅館。在車上打聽一下，何處可修眼鏡？ 司機 說，附近都沒有眼鏡行，只有到首府「淡巴沙」才能修。我不禁嘆道：「你們這裡真不方便。」 司機則笑著 說：「這裡的人很少近視，倒不會感到不方便。」聽這司機談吐不俗，我決定包他一天車， 到「淡巴沙」修眼鏡，兼市區觀光。他猶豫了幾分鐘，才 說：「那我明早八點到旅館接你。」隔天，在「淡巴沙」逛了一上午，發覺此處無啥可逛；我想打道回府，下午就在旅館游泳、休息。但是想到司機為接生意，必然推掉許多原有計畫，就難以啟齒。掙扎甚久，我結結巴巴地 說：「對不起，司機先生，我想改成只包半天，不知會不會對你造成困擾？」 沒想到司機竟喜出望外地 說：「一點都不會。昨天，你要包一整天車，我很猶豫，如果不是因為跟你談得來，我是不接受包整天車的。」我困惑地問：「為什麼？」 他答：「 我設定一個工作目標，每天只要做到六百元台幣，我就收工，你用一千二台幣包一整天，那我就沒有自己的時間了。」「你可以儲錢，隔天休息呀？」他笑著 說：「先是做一整天再休息，然後就變成做一個月、做一整年再休息；最後是做一輩子，終生不得休息。工作也會習慣的。」我問：「那你們閒著幹嘛呢？時間那麼多，不會無聊嗎？」他看著我，像遇到外星人一樣，說：「這裡那 麼好玩，怎會無聊？峇里島 每家都養鬥雞，收工後，我們就鬥鬥雞、放放風箏，到沙灘打打排球，游游泳呀！」這時，我想到一則笑話：一個美國人到大溪地度假，當大溪地人賣力地幫他按摩時，老美滿心優越感，滿臉悲憫地說： 「如果 你們上進點、積極點、勤快點，你們也可以像我們一樣到大溪地度假呀！」大溪地人一臉疑惑地 說：「你辛苦一年，只為了到大溪地過兩星期日子，我卻是一整年在大溪地享受生活的，我為什麼要學你？」 從峇里島回台灣後，司機的話就像禪宗語錄，不斷在腦海盤旋。突然覺得前半輩子完全「誤入歧途」。 再繼續「進化」下去，可以想見房子應越換越大，大到無力打掃，再請菲傭；為了養房貸與菲傭，只好拚命工作，有家歸不得。那麼大房子 又有何意義？ 開車時，我也想：以車代步，四體不勤，搞得日漸臃腫，只好買個腳踏車或踏步機放在臥室踩。 但時忙，時懶，難以有恆；那何不乾脆騎單車上班，爬樓梯踏步呢？在峇里島治好了文明的近視之後，人生境界豁然開朗， 步調一放慢，視野更寬，也更清楚 。人生過程中您是否也是汲汲營營隨波逐流呢？ 何妨停下腳步抬起頭來看一下方向對否, 這是否是您所要的人生? 忙的時後 , 想要休息; 渡假的時後 , 想到未來; 窮的時後, 渴望富有; 生活安逸了, 擔心結果不如預期; 看明白了 , 後悔當初沒有下定決心; 不屬於自己的 , 常常心存慾望;握在手裡了 , 又懷念未擁有前的輕鬆; 生命若不是現在 , 那是何時!!愈是簡單的快樂 ,愈可以經久不變, 不用苦苦追求快樂 ,現在就是一種幸福喔!!!
Friday, February 1, 2008
22 yrs old
It feels as if the years has gone by with a blink of the eye.
I've forgotten how it feels to be 19, i can only remember 2005 by matchbox 20's "unwell", i wanna remember how it feels like to be 22 on 1st of feb 2008. After all 22 is the turning point where you start to get old..
I like cute girls, I adore sex on an epic scale and would do anything to get it... well.. almost anything.. not some kinky shit... I love money.. would like to make lots of it, although the prospects of the economy seems to tell me that my pay is only going to rise 1% each year for the next 12 years.I don't quite enjoy working, it just makes time seem to pass faster. I want to strike toto and big sweep, ideally the new year angpao draw.. I've bought lots... i think i should strike.. I don't quite like my boss, when i strike.. i'll probably quit.
I still enjoy walking up and down orchard road, suntec and citylink dozens of time feeling not at all purposeful, i like watching the antics of 20yr olds acting half their age, it amuses me.. I saw 2 grown man holding hands... i can't describe the feeling it gives me.. STI fell more than 800 points in 1 week, it doesn't amuse me..
I've been dumped twice, and i love wallowing in my self inflicted pain each time...
I like eating muah chee, i still talk more than i do... i would like to change that... but the chances of that happening is probably equivalent to that of striking toto. I no longer like festivals as i have lost the ability to immerse in festive celebrations.. it all seems so plain and hollow... just like any other day except for the crowdes on the street and the blinking pieces of tungsten hanging above your head looking like they might fall on you anytime soon. I am trying my best to pass my exams although it seems like all bets are on me failing.. I missed jay chou's concert, but i'm trying to get to zhang zhen yue's one.. i'm looking for someone to goto the river angpao with.. but seems quite bleak as i have only a week more to look.. I am thinking of lihong now.. i wonder how she's doing.. but i think i'll get by and move on... after all she's so far away..
I appreciate my weekly runs with zhihao and jianquan.. although we don't meet as often.. we still share a common bond.. I forgot to call up donald to arrange a meeting for chek.. my memory is getting bad... well.. i think that's about all..
Good luck turning 23
B.Regards
Ken
I don't know why... churned out the best regards automatically....
must have typed too many emails... ahh.. the agony of being a overworked and underpayed 24hr standby working class..
I've forgotten how it feels to be 19, i can only remember 2005 by matchbox 20's "unwell", i wanna remember how it feels like to be 22 on 1st of feb 2008. After all 22 is the turning point where you start to get old..
I like cute girls, I adore sex on an epic scale and would do anything to get it... well.. almost anything.. not some kinky shit... I love money.. would like to make lots of it, although the prospects of the economy seems to tell me that my pay is only going to rise 1% each year for the next 12 years.I don't quite enjoy working, it just makes time seem to pass faster. I want to strike toto and big sweep, ideally the new year angpao draw.. I've bought lots... i think i should strike.. I don't quite like my boss, when i strike.. i'll probably quit.
I still enjoy walking up and down orchard road, suntec and citylink dozens of time feeling not at all purposeful, i like watching the antics of 20yr olds acting half their age, it amuses me.. I saw 2 grown man holding hands... i can't describe the feeling it gives me.. STI fell more than 800 points in 1 week, it doesn't amuse me..
I've been dumped twice, and i love wallowing in my self inflicted pain each time...
I like eating muah chee, i still talk more than i do... i would like to change that... but the chances of that happening is probably equivalent to that of striking toto. I no longer like festivals as i have lost the ability to immerse in festive celebrations.. it all seems so plain and hollow... just like any other day except for the crowdes on the street and the blinking pieces of tungsten hanging above your head looking like they might fall on you anytime soon. I am trying my best to pass my exams although it seems like all bets are on me failing.. I missed jay chou's concert, but i'm trying to get to zhang zhen yue's one.. i'm looking for someone to goto the river angpao with.. but seems quite bleak as i have only a week more to look.. I am thinking of lihong now.. i wonder how she's doing.. but i think i'll get by and move on... after all she's so far away..
I appreciate my weekly runs with zhihao and jianquan.. although we don't meet as often.. we still share a common bond.. I forgot to call up donald to arrange a meeting for chek.. my memory is getting bad... well.. i think that's about all..
Good luck turning 23
B.Regards
Ken
I don't know why... churned out the best regards automatically....
must have typed too many emails... ahh.. the agony of being a overworked and underpayed 24hr standby working class..
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